[This rant is not intended to attack, judge, or point fingers at any individual. I am not, in any way, claiming to be perfect. This is just a big long thing about what's been on my mind recently. I didn't force y'all to read this, so don't get all peeved at what I say.] If there's one thing I've learned in my sixteen years on this dark and once green planet, it's the history of this crazy little thing in existence called "integrity". I know.. freaky, right? As my life progresses in its usual dull manner, I have been able to take note on this thing. I've found that "integrity" has become small, weak, and usually defenseless. As we all know, the circle of life states that the weaker force is nearly always overpowered, and so integrity has, by this big monster called "ego". The ego bug has settled and overwhelmed the population, an I have personally witnessed the integrity deplete and nearly fall into the hands of extinction.
I am not trying to say that there is not a person with integrity these days whatsoever. I'm merely pointing out that the compassion which is given as a birthright to people is generally buried underneath the poison-like substances of selfishness and the dire need to feel important. However, there are occasional traces of humanity and love still found. They're just.. really hard to get to, that's all.
One of the aspects of integrity I have been missing the most would be the honesty. There is not a thing I am bothered by more than that of a person who leads more than one life. I find it hard to associate with people who are so different from day to day, they might as well be separate people. Leading a double, triple, or even quadruple life is not only confusing, but also a version of lying and hypocrisy. Hypocrites and liars hold a very damp page in my book. There is no quality lower to me than one of a person who can't keep a constant story. One who says the first thing followed by acting on the second (which the first heavily frowns upon) is, to me, an extremely sick being, and not sick in the cool way. I believe in consistancies. Personally, I attempt to be the same person with each and every being in my life, and it all seems to be working quite well with me. Those who have to keep things "on the DL" that they do, (say, for example, behaving rudely and inappropriately around their friends, but telling others that they would never dosuch a thing) should know that that basically makes them a liar and/or hypocrite. Eventually, said person will get caught up in their own web of lies and will find it tricky to find an escape, if there is one at all.
Finger pointing and judging also retain a solid sorrowful place in my peeve book. I strongly believe that there is not a person in this universe who holds such a right, to judge another being based on gender, race, lifestyle choices, or sexuality; anyone who disagrees is, in my opinion, incredibly narrow-minded and, simply put, stupid. People were put on this earth to love and care and make their own choices and exercise their own free will; they shouldn't have to worry about how others will treat them as a cause of their choices and actions. Don't get me wrong- everyone is entitled to their own opinion. But I don't think it's quite fair for people to use their opinions to oppress others and shove them into a "perfect" little box. Not everyone has to be like everyone else. It's up to them. Before any person starts wagging his finger at an other's preferences and choices, perhaps they should look at their own faults, and let "he who is without sin cast the first stone".
Please, let's leave the intra-personal judging to God, and let's all try to be healthy beings, honest ones. You'd be surprised at how many great things could come for letting peace into your life.
